"Let me let go"

It's the end of 2011. For me, it was a year of laughter, tears and headaches (not exactly in that order).  All in all, I'm just grateful to be here for another year. After all, there isn't much I can do to change my past...it's time to look forward and plan for the future.

Trouble is, I can't let go.

Men folk, you may not to want to read this next part.

A few weeks ago, I went to get my eyebrows waxed. It's not a lot of fun. They slather hot wax on your eyebrows and then take a tiny strip of some sort of paper and put it on the wax and then RIP!!!!!!!  But that isn't the end of it. Just when you think you're safe..they go in with a pair of tweezers and it turns into a "Plucking Nightmare".  During my last visit, the lady remarked "Wow...some of these just don't seem to want to "let go".  Figures.

 It just seems that nothing about me wants to "let go"  of anything..the past or present .  If I have a particularly bad day at work, I just can't put it aside. I get into a fight with a friend, I absolutely shut down and it takes me days to move on. I dwell on the most ridiculous things in life that most people don't ever give a second thought to. That's me,  I'm a dweller.

 But I can't worry about my past. It's behind me. I can't really worry about the present because it will soon be past. So by simple deductions,  I guess I should just look ahead to my future. After all..tomorrow is another day..as I've been told.

 When I was asked to be a part of this team I remember thinking that I couldn't wait to see how God would bless me in 2012. I have a hard time remembering that He is blessing me every day I'm alive and that he has forgiven my past, is with me in the present and has big plans for my future. It's exciting to know that. I hope you know that, too.

 On to other business...

I've tried to keep up with my walking during the holidays. It's not easy. On Christmas Eve, while at my grandma's,  I decided that I would  have a traditional Christmas Dinner. But if I were to consume those calories, I'd have to do some walking. So..I walked...and walked...and walked....and walked. It was well over 3 miles and it was through a golf course, a neighborhood and around a duck pond. It was so nice spending this time outdoors. I've really become fond of getting out and looking at the world around me. To be honest, I haven't really done much of that in my life.

I also went to the gym and had some fun time on the elliptical.  I've learned that "The Big Bang Theory" is a great show to watch on an exercise machine. Just make sure not to have too many people around you because when you laugh hysterically, folks look at you strange ;)



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 So, that's it..my week so far.
Hope the rest of 2011 treats you kindly.